dawn at Lake Ella

9/23/2020 – Wednesday

Not quite as cool this morning, a solid 68°F with mild humidity — more like lukewarm, which to be fair is pretty much autumn in Florida.

Keely was slow to roust, then anxious to get out of the house, then slow to walk. Dogs truly do live only in the present moment and we could learn so much from them.

As I walked I had to listen to music, I barely made it through my language lesson, due my mind skittering about in the shadows of current events, my health, and my business. I’m in the prelim stages of re-launching my writers’ coaching endeavor, and dealing with a lot of feelings of impostor syndrome along with perfectionism (a curse!) and fear of being judged/seen. This is all in the mix with the terror that has become the U.S. government, the economy, and (randomly?) my annual physical tomorrow. Friends are also experiencing a lot of bad stuff lately and it’s all…very much-ish.

So, yes, I can’t even tell you what I was thinking about because I was thinking about everything.

Keely otoh was thinking about keeping walking for as long as possible, which I know because she kept trying to drag me across Monroe St. to the Publix plaza, and from there who knows! She gave me the pleading bambi eyes but no, I have to actually go to the office today so I could not humor her, alas!

I’m a terrible person but she still loves me anyway. 🙂