cw// food, diet, health
Writing this late (after noon!) but eh, not gonna fuss about it. Stayed up past my bedtime with my friend KimM, and we enjoyed pizza and wine and long conversations. So, no regrets to sleeping in!
Got the dog out the door a bit before 8 am. We were due rain (which has since moved in for a stay) and it was already a bit gusty and misty, but nothing Keely isn’t willing to suffer. One of the advantages, though, was being out late enough for it to be bright enough to see this interesting heron mural on the back of the Mackenzie Kate Dancewear store at the Cottages. Obviously it’s been there for a while, but this is the first time I’ve ever noticed it!
Kinda curious about it! And was there once a matching mural on the other side of the doors? Mysteries abound!
In other news, the sad part about a late night of pizza and wine is GERD. I’m just so tired of it, honestly. I need to stop thinking of it as a minor inconvenience and more like a chronic condition brought on by norovirius+aging. Cue internal monologue of “what do you MEAN I’m not 25 years old anymore?!?!?!?!”
The best solution for a lot of what ails me right now (GERD, swollen joints, mental lethargy) is to go back on a low-carb diet. And lordy, how I hate that word, “diet.” Yes of COURSE I want to lose weight, but it’s such a fraught desire, bordering on pathological, that I hate to entertain it. Yet, I genuinely do feel better in a lot of ways when I am eating low-carb. (I know this is not a true thing for some people, but it is for me.) A lifetime of being lectured and shamed about my weight makes the “goal” hard to let go. Can I just eat in a way that is healthy for me without fixating on weight loss? Is that even possible?
Guess we’re gonna find out. :/